i am a triple special snowflake it seems, thanks very much sabbato, idealistically & dewdropinn for the v-gifts. kind of brightened my mood when i came home to see those in my emails/profile. you guys are sweethearts :] ♥

my wrist = getting slightly better. i would say that its almost all better, i think. its sore, but otherwise moves decently though still with a slight bit of pain.

i think i'm just about done my christmas shopping i only because i can't afford anything else. i just wanted to make sure i had something for jeremy, mom, sabbato, lori & manda. and i do. i think that's just about it! :]

edit; if anyone wants a christmas card, leave me a comment with your email/address and i'll email you for it or whatever. all comments screened because of this. :]

i have been playing 'air piano' all night. listening to various classical artists (debussy, schubert, chopin, etc.) will do that. i can't move my wrist enough to do much else, so it's just in the air, pressing the keys it would on a piano. lololol i feel so lame.

fdsnjfks my wrist keeps throbbing really painfully. its like, throbbing in a vein or something. i don't even know if that's possible, but that's kind of what it feels like. like it's only in the one area of the wrist and it's on a vein if i touch it. maybe its not a vein, maybe its a tendon or something. idkkkk. i just know it's in a specific area of the wrist and its like annoyingly throbbing. apart from that, it hurts to turn it certain ways but not nearly as much as before. fuckin' ace for slight healing.

also if my email could just receive it would be nice. ._.

the shift key is my enemy. i used to be able to part my fingers further than shift+a [from right to left of the keyboard] having played piano for like seventy billion years, but alas, my piano hands are dead apparently. so caps lock is my bff for rp writing coherent and pretty sentences.

so it turns out that the night i dislocated my wrist i dislocated my thumb also but didn't realize until the next evening because it was wrapped insanely tightly and when i unwrapped it to put ice on it, the thumb was like 'fuck youuuu' so i had to pop it back into place. but now we all good.

well sorta. it still hurts like mad, jeremy thinks i might have sprained it when i wrenched it back in place. or have a hairline fracture, but i don't think it's that bad, seriously.

no upper case letters feels so awkward. ._.

So, I dislocated my wrist last night while I was going to sleep. It wasn’t the smartest thing to do, I know, but hear me out; I totally had a plan. (no, not really.)

Ugh, it was awful. Jeremy was panicked that it was broke or something because I thought I had just snapped it, until I couldn’t move my fingers anymore. Then I took a shot in the dark and shoved it back into place (which would have hurt like a %$^@# if it were broken) and whimpered about it for a while. It’s good times, really. I put ice on it and then wrapped it up, but removed it at like 5am because I felt like the wrap was cutting off my circulation. I have it back on again and it’s making typing really slow and hard, but it helps keep the wrist straight which is the less painful position I have for it right now.

But yeah, that was my adventure last night before sleep.
Awesome. :|

UTI isn't fucking one of them.

Fantastic, just what I wanted to deal with! ._.

Fucking Goddamn it. I'm getting sick of this bullshit. Pain, bleeding, no sleep — yeah, that's good times. Fuck that in the eye.

dhnfuihsnmfklj

Happy goddamn Thanksgiving people. I hope it's better than mine.

I don't know why, I just felt like posting pics. :|

( Yay. )

I had a rather ... Odd dream. It was odd, but depressing. Kind of sad throughout, but it's something that I could almost honestly turn into a novel. I might look into attempting to at least write out some character profiles based on the people in my dream and go from there. I don't know, as depressing as it was it was kind of interesting to and that might honestly help me get out of my funk if I take something and write about it.

I don't know, I suppose it was just a thought.

My little brother gave my sister the H1N1, I.. Can't remember if I mentioned that over the good ol' LJ programmo. Turns out that my brother is a lot worse off than I thought he originally was. For whatever reason, the flu is making it so that he can't breathe and because of that he's been in the hospital for days with a respiratory system thingamajig attached to him. My mother is there with him and my father has taken time off from fishing to stay at home with Molly. Which ... means it must be pretty bad if dad is taking time off. :/

I've been really worried. I suppose that plays a part in why I've avoided AIM and junk.

Depression + Fear/Worry = Megan cannot cope.

I'm going to call tomorrow, see how everyone is doing. Until then I guess I'm just gonna ... Chill. :|

Apparently I can't go into Best Buy without spending plenty of dollars that I don't have on DVDs/merch. It's kind of awful, we went in there for the new Star Trek DVD BluRay, what the crap ever! And came out with much more than just that. It turns out that Jeremy and I are horrible electronics shoppers, or whatever you want to call it. We're just not that good at looking over the BluRays/DVDs without wanting to buy all of it. Anyway, this is what we came out with when we went in for ONE item. :|

• Star Trek 3-disc BluRay Digital Copy Special Edition
• Ghost in the Shell 2: Innocence DVD (Since we have the first one and we both have yet to see the second, why the hell not? Did I mention it comes in an amazing metal case?)
• Stargate: The Ark of Truth & Continuum BluRay Double Pack
• Stanley Kubrick's 2001: A Space Odyssey DVD
• Vision of Escaflowne complete series on DVD

This is of course without before mentioning that I have coming in the mail Stargate SG-1 seasons 7 & 8. :|

My nerd card, let me show you it.

I have to try and be more active at the rpg. I just don't know what to do with some characters and I haven't been motivated because of depression. I'm hoping this weekend will be good for me to get back into the swing of things.

Blah, I think I'm going to sleep. Or watch Digimon.

I had intended to apologize for not being around (via AIM) much lately, but I decided that since I was avoiding it in the first place to keep from bringing people down with my shitty ass moods, then what’s the point of an apology? So instead of that, I’ll just babble about other things like… How lately I’ve been crashing at awkwardly early times of the day in which I’m not used to, well, not the “day” per se, more the evening when I’m normally awake and ready to be up all night. Around 9ish I’m starting to get tired as hell and crash around 11 or 12, which I’m not used to. I guess I’m getting tired of being tired or something, I don’t know.

( blahblahblahblah. )

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And now for something that is not horribly emo. Taken from dewdropinn

1. Put your playlist on random.
2. Post a line from the first 30 songs
3. Delete the songs when someone guesses correctly

( music. )

sabbato gave me a meme. Now I'm going to attempt it. :| :| :|

Comment and I'll give you three fandoms, for which you must answer these:

01: What got you into this fandom in the first place?
02: Do you think you'll stay in this fandom or eventually move on?
03: Favorite episodes/books/movies/etc.?
04: Do you participate in this fandom (fanfiction, graphics, discussions)?
05: Do you think that more people should get into this fandom?

( fandoms fandoms everywhere )

(4:50:47 AM) cabbit_kitten and be like
(4:50:53 AM) cabbit_kitten "..oh honey you did not."
(4:50:56 AM) sabbato XD
(4:51:01 AM) sabbato :| ala Diane?
(4:51:07 AM) cabbit_kitten yes
(4:51:10 AM) sabbato That was
(4:51:10 AM) cabbit_kitten ala diane
(4:51:11 AM) sabbato the most epic
(4:51:12 AM) sabbato comment
(4:51:13 AM) sabbato ever
(4:51:15 AM) cabbit_kitten XD
(4:51:19 AM) cabbit_kitten "oh honey no."
(4:51:19 AM) sabbato "oh honey no."
(4:51:33 AM) sabbato lawl same time stamp.

:|
There is proof of twin-ness now.
zomg.

I grow ever more worried about little friend. There’s a toad that’s been living around our front porch for idek how long now, I have dubbed him Bonta-kun after the character in Full Metal Panic! Fumoffu. However he has not been around for a few nights and thus I weep. (Yes, I really am talking about a toad named Bonta-kun in my journal.) He just kind of sits there when we go outside, all like; “what’s up, guys?” and I thought it was cute so I finally gave him a name. :| A-anyway…

I went to the 7-eleven tonight to get coffee, because I haven’t got the ability to remain awake right now. I don’t know what the problem is. I said goodnight/morning to anendlesswitch and thatpersonglows (btw, the cheat codes for the sims I mentioned to you? They worked. :]!) to play the sims2 for a while and that was at like, I don’t know — maybe around 7ish in the morning and eventually fell asleep around noon. Woke up at 3 when Jeremy came home and then slept until 6. At 6 we went to get food and then I slept from 7 until 9. Around 10:30 I was still lying on the bed, feeling heavy, weak and just generally exhausted to the point that I couldn’t keep my freaking eyes opened, so I decided coffee was necessary. But we lack sugar at the house so we had to go buy some. And for the record, sabbato my 7-eleven does indeed have the Domokun cups, huhuhu. >]

But yeah, I don’t know. :|
But I guess this means one of two things will happen: a] I’ll be up all night/most of the day tomorrow and crash FOREVER tomorrow afternoon/evening or, b] I’m just going to crash in a freaking hour or two because my body is sometimes like “LOL CAFFEINE HAS NO EFFECT, SLEEP SPELL IS CAST — IT’S SUPER EFFECTIVE.”

So yeah! We’ll see. I should have watched Pandora Hearts or Digimon instead of playing the Sims. Bawwwwwwwww.

First Replicator "We are inside your unconscious mind."
Jack O'Neill "...you'd think there'd be more lights."

lololol

Why is Stargate filled with awesome things to quote?

Splee! New layout!

I dunno, I was bored and apparently not taking this time to sleep for some reason. I blame Kansas for my being awake, every time I get to Dust in the Wind I can't seem to turn of iGore. I will never sleep if this infatuation does not soon come to a close I fear I won't be getting any damned sleep until the afternoon and that's just not damned good enough! Lame reason, perhaps — but it's a gorgeous (albeit somewhat saddening) song. :x

I heard from my mother that my sister has also possibly contracted H1N1; I'm assuming probably from having been around Taylor, I don't know. But she mentioned that Taylor does seem to be improving, so that's good — but she still seems pretty worried about him, I suppose he's one of the unhealthiest of the four children, so I can imagine her fears.

Dad's birthday was yesterday but he wasn't home when I called, the man was on the ocean catching fishes. iRage. He shouldn't be working out on the sea on his birthday, especially since HE picks the days that the boat goes out onto the water. I worry if only because I'm pretty sure one of these days I'm going to get a call saying that he's worked himself into a stupor or something. He really needs to learn how to calm down and take a day of relaxation. Even when he's not on the water he doesn't stop working around the house — I don't freaking know where the energy comes from but I wish he'd share.

I'm feeling a bit better too, when it comes to illness and whatnot. My toe seems to be better, hopefully that's the end of that. :|

Thought about watching Pandora Hearts but I'm yawning like a nerdlinger™ so! Time to attempt sleep, methinks. I just have to shut the damn song off before it starts again, that's all lolololol.

sabbato TXT: So dead.
sabbato TXT: I want to shoot myself it's so dead
cabbit_kitten UNDEAD, I CHOOSE YOU. ZOMBIE ATTACK, GO. ZOMBIE ATTACK IS USED ON THE PEOPLE OF THE STORE. ITS SUPER EFFECTIVE.

Stolen from dewdropinn

The problem with LJ: we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away.

Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.

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I don't know what to update with.

I've been feeling sick the last few days, I blame either acquiring the illness via the internets from sabbato or with the more likely aspect of Jeremy carrying home something from the kids he works with an my faillsauce immune system picking it up and deciding to let it play around with my fail health to make it all the more crappy to begin with. It's not good times, really. I've been sleeping more than before, which is crap considering I was sleeping a lot to begin with and I even feel weaker than before, too.

Apparently my little brother has contracted the H1N1 flu. My parents brought him to the hospital because he continued a downfall in health and since he's like I am in the sense that he just doesn't have that great of an immunity to most if not all illnesses, they worried it might be something and took him in where they ran tests and concluded that he is indeed suffering from said virus. I talked to him for like, ten minutes on MSN messenger where he told me about it before he killed over.

Apart from those two things, I honestly have no idea what to say. :|

Tai: Watch it, that could have been a snake! Or worse.
T.K.: Oh boy, I’m sorry. Hey Biyomon, are there really snakes here?
Biyomon: No, just giant flying killer bugs and other unpleasant digimon.

LOL WHAT.
I’ll take the snake, kthx. :|

I forgot how amazingly cute and funny Digimon is. Well, no — I didn’t forget, per se, I just conveniently remembered from watching it again.

Note to self: Band-aids, needs more of them for foot. When Jeremy gets home I’ll pester him to go to the store but for now it’s time for more Digimon while Pandora Hearts downloads.

And then possibly attempt more sleep.

I’m getting really confused and tired with having to deal with this more often than I ever had before. Actually, now that I properly think about it — I’ve never actually had to deal with this before I moved from Canadaland™ down here in Floridanation™ and I honestly don’t know what’s causing it, either! It’s baffling and interesting all at once but at the same time, it’s irritating and actually pretty painful believe it or not. My toes keep getting infected — how, I do not fucking know, but it’s like the fourth time now.

( Cut because I don’t want to disturb people — just in case for whatever reason pus freaks people out. :x )

Ugh, I just want to not have something droll going on with my body for like .5 seconds in my life, God damn it. ;_;

Fuck it — now is the time for sleep; it’s almost 8AM and I haven’t killed over yet. I should get to that now that my freaking issue has been resolved (somewhat) or at least put at ease for the time being. With that on the back burner, sleep has full priority. Goodnight (morning), LJ.

HA FOUR MINUTES TO GET IT IN